Chennai: Popular director Ram Gopal Varma has confessed that he was not under the influence of alcohol but of his success and ego, although he did not know this until he made the film ‘Satya’ for the first time after 27 years. ‘Seen. Year.
Getting emotional and writing a confession post for himself on Were.
He wrote, “When ‘Satya’ was about to end, two days ago, while watching it for the first time after 27 years, I got choked up and tears started rolling down my cheeks and I didn’t care if anyone saw. The tears were not just for the movie, but more so for what happened after.
“Making a film is like giving birth to an obsessive child, without knowing what kind of child I am giving birth to. This is because a film is made in pieces, without knowing what is being made and when it will be ready. The focus is on what others are saying about it and after that, whether it’s a hit or not, I become obsessed with it and move forward to reflect and understand the beauty of what I’ve created myself. What will happen.”
Lamenting why he did not set Satya as the standard for what he should do in the future, Ram Gopal Varma said, “Until two days ago, I saw it as another step in my journey.” Countless inspirations were ignored while dismissing them as forms. Destination without purpose.
Coming back to the hotel after the screening of Satya, and sitting in the dark, I couldn’t understand that with all my so-called intelligence, I had not set this film as a benchmark for whatever I should do in the future. I also realized that I didn’t just cry for the tragedy of that film, I also cried for the happiness of that version of me… and I cried for the guilt of my betrayal of all those people who had created ‘Satya’. ‘Because he trusted me.’
Saying that the bright lights of Satya had blinded him and that was the reason he strayed into making films for shock value, Ram Gopal further said, “I am not under the influence of alcohol but because of my success and my I was drunk with ego, although I didn’t know this until two days ago.
When the bright lights of ‘Rangeela’ or ‘Satya’ blinded me, I lost my sight and it was not my turn to make films for shock value or gimmicky effect or to flaunt my technical wizardry or various other things. Clarifies my confusion. Equally futile and in that careless process, forgetting the simple truth that technology can elevate a given material but cannot advance it.
Admitting that some of his later films may have been successful, but none of them had the honesty and integrity that ‘Satya’ had, Ram Gopal Varma further said, “My very unique vision made me successful in cinema. I was also inspired to do something new.” It blinded me to the value of what I had built for myself and I became the person running so fast while looking toward the horizon. That I forgot to see the garden that I planted under my feet, and this explains my various falls from grace.
The director further added, “Obviously I can’t make any improvements to what I have already done, but I promised myself two nights ago, wiping my tears, that from now on, whatever film I make, It will be made with reverence for the why.” I first wanted to become a director.
“I will probably never be able to make a film like Satya again, but not even intending to do so is an unforgivable crime against cinema. I don’t mean that I should keep making films like ‘Satya’, but regardless of the genre or subject at least ‘Satya’ should have honesty.
“When Francis Coppola was asked by an interviewer about the movie he made after ‘The Godfather’ and whether it would be as good, I could see him panicking because I could see it hadn’t occurred to him. Whatever film I was going to make after ‘Satya’, no one asked me whether it would be that good, but what’s worse is that I didn’t ask myself.
“I wish I could go back in time and make it a cardinal rule for myself that before I decide to make any film, I should watch ‘Satya’ once again… If I followed that rule Had I followed it, I am sure I would not have made this film. I have made 90% of the films since then.
“I really want to say this as a warning to every filmmaker who at any time gets swept up in self-indulgence without measuring it against the standards set by themselves or others because of their mental state.
“Finally, now I have pledged that whatever is left in my life, I want to spend it honestly and create something worthy like ‘Satya’ and on this truth I swear by ‘Satya’. ”
