New Delhi:
Neha Bhasin’s latest Instagram post is leaving her fans surprised. On Saturday, the singer posted a note from her diary on Instagram and opened up about suffering from hormonal and mental conditions like premenstrual dysphoric disorder, obsessive compulsive personality disorder and fibromyalgia. Her note began with the words, “There’s so much I want to say but I don’t really know where to begin or how to consolidate the helpless hell I’m experiencing. After knowing for years that something is wrong. Finally today comes the diagnosis (on paper for 2 years, I’ve known since I was 20) with more awareness medically, which helps in getting the right treatment for mental and hormonal ailments and with all this comes the big realisation and then the acceptance that at least for now my nervous system feels broken…
The singer shared how she tried to manage the conditions. She wrote, “Cognitive therapy, yoga, not isolating, not overdoing things to manage stress, seeing loved ones, journaling, being okay with discomfort. Less screen time, you name it but my monthly PMDD still finds a way to throw me into an old dark hole or dig several new ones. Is this my failure? My CPD asks.. Flare up symptoms of what my doctor calls fibromyalgia, which I am now also accepting.. I have exercised. Danced with pain for years, performed, overstretched thinking I was just tight. My therapist said do nothing for a while. Rest.”
Neha Bhasin said she has been in pain for decades. She said, “Acceptance lets you relax but relaxation makes you realise how tired and broken you are. None of this feels fair or okay or even nearly pleasant, on top of that the PMDD loops of mental hell and the new awareness of no longer containing them but observing them. On top of that they say you also have OCPD which made you a successful person but has left you exhausted. I have been in pain for decades but overcoming it, living my dreams, moving forward like a warrior. A girl living her dream.”
The star concluded, “Today, I saw an old man with a huge box in one hand and an umbrella in the other, climbing the stairs of my gym in the rain and he looked at me and smiled and that made me cry even more. It made me feel guilty and sad. You should be more grateful Neha. No conclusions yet… All the pain is real for the victims and right now I am in pain. A lot.”
In her caption, Neha Bhasin wrote, “A day in my diary when I was battling some challenges in my life. I am writing this neither as a victim nor as a winner. I am simply writing because it feels like the most relaxing thing to do. Sending love to everyone.”
Reacting to the post, singer-actor Sushant Divgikar said, “My didi, you have always been one of the nicest people I have ever met and loved. I am with you now and always. Let me know whenever you need me and I will be present. For hugs and lots of laughter.” Salim Merchant dropped a red heart. Meghna Naidu commented, “Lots of love and strength my hottie… I’m just a message away so you can always count on me.” Shardul Pandit wrote, “Lots of love.”
Neha Bhasin has sung many hit tracks like Welcome with swag, Assalam-e-Ishqum, And The world turned around.
